OH. MY. GOODNESS.

Starting weight 281 /20st 1lb (Jan 09)

Current weight 240 lb / 17st 2 lb
* This week gained 6 pounds *

So far lost 41 lb / 2st 12lb

Size at start UK 26 / Current size UK 22
Next mini goal 224 / 16st
Angie x

OH MY GOSH - I am a walking disaster! All I did was take Friday and Saturday off and I gained 6 pounds. That is ridiculous. I didn't go over by all that much.

OK I need to realise that this is a fluke. Maybe water or something. I need to make sure it doesn't throw me off my diet. Just keep on doing what I was doing before. I lost 47 pounds so it must be working.

Belated weigh In for Monday 15th June 2009

Starting weight 281 /20st 1lb (Jan 09)
Current weight 234 lb / 16st 10 lb

* This week lost 3 pounds *
So far lost 47 lb / 3st 4lb
Size at start UK 26 / Current size UK 22

Next mini goal 224 / 16st

Angie x

Hello - here is my weigh in from almost a week ago! I have been sooooo busy I didn't have chance to post until now. But I am happy to report that I have lost 3 pounds.

I have been working some extra hours and also I bought a new laptop which is taking up my precious spare time, I am trying to adjust to using it. Plus I am having to load everything up and transfer my pictures and files from my old PC to the laptop. NOT that I am complaining though - I LOVE it!

I have also taken an unplanned diet break over the weekend. I have been to the coast and we had friends to stay. Of course that involved going to the pub quite a bit. I did allow myself some beer on Friday night and we ate out on Saturday and today. I haven't gone too mad but I am so surprised to report that I really missed my healthy eating! I can't wait to get back into routine tomorrow. I don't know what the weigh in will bring - but whatever the outcome, I am so ready to have a great week.

Getting Serious...with myself!

Hey, remember me? I read all these blogs and I find so much inspiration and I love that people are conquering their demons and making their goals and I think to myself that could be me but deep down I know what it will take to get there and I think to myself I have failed so many times there is no way it could ever be me.

WOW, did any of that make sense? The long and short is that I sabotage myself. Through thoughts, self doubt, lack of ambition, laziness, you name it and I do it.

Quite honestly I am sick of it. I am sick of all of it. I am sick of being a failure. I am sick of being fat, I am sick of being out of shape, I am sick of not living my life. I am sick of being sick.
There is ABSOLUTELY NO reason I cannot accomplish my goals. There is no reason I cannot keep up with things. There is no reason except that I have become EXTREMELY lazy. `

I hope to be better about updating here because I really want a record of my progress. I think the reason I lack journaling of any sort is because I worry about failure or that I know I won’t keep up with it but the questions I have to ask myself is did I ever really try?

Weigh In 8th June 2009

Starting weight 281 /20st 1lb (Jan 09)

Current weight 237 lb / 16st 13 lb
* This week lost 5 pounds *

So far lost 43 lb / 3st 1lb

Size at start UK 26 / Current size UK 22
Next mini goal 224 / 16st

Angie x

I am feeling so good right now. I am down 5 pounds this week. At last a decent loss - woohoo.
I am so focused again, thank goodness. I ate out at a chinese restaurant tonight with my man, J and my parents. I stayed in control and managed to handle the situation easily. I only ate a really small portion and because I was casual about it, no one really noticed. When we arrived back home, J mentioned to me that he noticed I didn't eat much and asked why. I said I didn't want to spoil my diet. He said he was really impressed with my willpower. (What MY willpower? wow - I actually have willpower?!) But, do you know what? I am impressed with myself. And it is a really loonnnnnng time since that happened. Please please please let me keep it up!

Weigh In - 1st June 2009

Starting weight 281 /20st 1lb (Jan 09)
Current weight 242 lb / 17st 4 lb

* This week lost 1 pound *
So far lost 38 lb / 2st 10 lb
Size at start UK 26 / Current size UK 22

Next mini goal 224 / 16st
Angie x

My total Sparkpoints for May = 908
TOTAL Spark Exercise Minutes for May= 660
(my April minutes were 520)

My new target for June is 1000 - can I do it?

My new mini goal is 224

I am also giving up chocolate and sweet foods and only allowed Weightwatchers cake etc