Hey, remember me? I read all these blogs and I find so much inspiration and I love that people are conquering their demons and making their goals and I think to myself that could be me but deep down I know what it will take to get there and I think to myself I have failed so many times there is no way it could ever be me.
WOW, did any of that make sense? The long and short is that I sabotage myself. Through thoughts, self doubt, lack of ambition, laziness, you name it and I do it.
Quite honestly I am sick of it. I am sick of all of it. I am sick of being a failure. I am sick of being fat, I am sick of being out of shape, I am sick of not living my life. I am sick of being sick.
There is ABSOLUTELY NO reason I cannot accomplish my goals. There is no reason I cannot keep up with things. There is no reason except that I have become EXTREMELY lazy. `
I hope to be better about updating here because I really want a record of my progress. I think the reason I lack journaling of any sort is because I worry about failure or that I know I won’t keep up with it but the questions I have to ask myself is did I ever really try?
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I got to the point where I felt so ill that I thought no amount of discomfort or misery on a diet could be worse. As it turned out, after a day or two feeling a wee bit crap, I soon began to feel a zillion times better.
ReplyDeleteIf fat, lazy, useless, disorganised, achey, wheezy me can do it, so can you!